Hey up, this is just a journal where I dump fanfic, you can browse the tags to find what you like. Thing is, this is my *secondary* journal in case Livejournal suddenly realises I put tonnes of porn up on there, so this is the best way to navigate the bedlam I have unleashed:

Most of my fic can be navigated through my (big old list of fic) on Livejournal, *particularly* the older fic which really hasn't been migrated over here in any sensible fashion. By fandom, you can find:

(Glee), Kurt/Blaine

(Musketeers (2014)) multishipped but often Aramis/Athos/Porthos

(Good Omens (TV)) Crowley/Aziraphale you might want to navigate by the tags rather than memories because Livejournal has changed its memories function and I can't technology so I'm just very confused by it now? Help.

Anyway, you're very welcome here and thank you for taking the time to read anything =) I have a strict no wank policy because I am just so very tired, so please contemplate the necessity of what you've typed if you want to start anything with me or any other commenter on here. If you want to bring anything up with me in private because you'd rather it wasn't public that's absolutely cool, I write about some pretty heavy stuff sometimes, I know not everyone wants to talk about that publicly.

On anonymous commenters: If there's a very obvious reason you're writing anonymously - one of those heavy subjects I mentioned - that's cool and fine and I respect absolutely why you maybe don't want your name attached to that. Otherwise, I don't respond to anonymous comments, I don't like the weird power imbalance online anonymity creates. If you don't have a Dreamwidth account just leave a name or initial on your comment so I know I'm talking to a particular person and I'll respond, but if you leave no name I won't reply, sorry, I've just had too many people use anonymity to be a dick over the years so now I have a 'no name no response' policy, I hope you understand <3

Cradle to the Grave, a men in hats short set in the stupid exorcist AU. I know I owe comment replies, I'm really sorry, and an end to the sodding affinityverse on top of it all; heavy workload right now, which means I'm in quite a lot of pain, and I really am just sulking with fic -_- (Plus, Hallowe'en. When else am I going to update *this* fic?)

Rating: I'm gonna say very light R but disproportionately disturbing for that rating?

Disclaimer: Unless ownership of the characters is being handed for out for a trick or treat, I don't own them, no.

Warnings/spoilers: Always refer to part one, but this part has bad things happening to very young children in it and that is really super disturbing and I am very aware of that and really really don't read it if you don't want to read that really seriously okay thanks <3

Summary: "We're driving through a thousand corpses, with only time between us."

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Full Circle, Musketeers fic, affinityverse (best catalogued in my memories) <3 Penultimate part; epilogue thing to come.

Disclaimer: Woman cannot live off fanfic alone; we need other people to actually own the characters so we as ficcers can even operate.

Rating: Probably R \o/

Warnings and spoilers: The main list's on part one, read sensibly.

Summary: "Unlike you, I have always been thinking of my circle."

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Conversations With the Dying and the Dead, Musketeers fic, affinityverse (best catalogued in my memories) <3

Disclaimer: I just finished the Twin Peaks finale, I don't even own a functioning brain right now. Talk to me about theories though y/y??

Rating: R-ish I don't even know I don't know anything anymore

Warnings and spoilers: The main list's on part one, read sensibly. More sensibly than any of us who watch anything by David Lynch before bed.

Summary: "Did you see a man pass here?"/"There's no-one here but you."

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Proximity to Crows, Musketeers fic, affinityverse (best catalogued in my memories) <3

Disclaimer: The price of butter has risen by a quarter since January. The fact that I'm painfully fucking aware of this suggests that my budget is rather smaller than that of the person who could claim ownership of these characters.

Rating: Eesh, call it R for old times' sake.

Warnings and spoilers: The main list's on part one, read sensibly.

Summary: How to win friends and not detonate people.

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This is a really weird post I never thought I would write, and I don't know if it will help matters or not, but it's something I can't get past and I got jarred into really badly again this morning reading a post about the Google discriminatory-email-fired-douchebag case, and now I *really* feel like I can't get past it. This has been tormenting me since the episode aired, and so this is basically a very long discussion of canon, and how fanon ignores canon, and a fact about canon I *can't* ignore, we *shouldn't* ignore. The post I was reading was arguing that white men claiming a right to air the political view that women and PoC shouldn't get hired by tech firms because they're not as good as white men are abusers, what they are doing is abuse, because abuse is a belief that you are entitled to certain things at the expense of other people (white men feeling they are entitled to be judged by lower standards, only against other white men, and not the rest of us, and they're entitled to make our work environment toxic to get what they feel entitled to; it was a good article, but I felt so ill with reading it I had to stop quarter of the way in).

And what it brought back to me, again, was the fact that I go through periods of writer's block in this fandom because I can't - I refuse to - get past a certain point of canon: Porthos is presented to us, in canon, as an abuser. And I am so angry at the character that I have difficulty now in writing him even in situations where I've given the character enough difference in situation that *that* character doesn't act like that; it still feels like condoning the abuse, saying somehow that it's not his fault, that it's *okay* to abuse people. It's not. Every new verse I've started in this fandom for a while (none of them has been posted yet) has either not featured Porthos at all or moved him into so minor a role that I can largely avoid him, because I can't write him as a good person when he isn't presented to us as a good person. I am struggling through finishing the affinityverse (it soothes me some to know that if affinityverse!Porthos met canon!Porthos, he would *hate* him, and they might come as far as physical blows; that verse was started long before we found out in canon who Porthos really is), but I really long for the relief of just not dealing with the character anymore. Below the cut will be a really lengthy discussion of canon evidence - nothing more, all of this is there onscreen to see - of Porthos' behaviour. If you don't want to read it, fine. I just want it out in fandom because it doesn't seem to be there that if you have been treated the way Porthos treats Aramis, it is *not your fault*, what was done to you is *wrong*, and you deserve to be somewhere safe away from the abuser, you *deserve* that. You certainly don't deserve retraumatising every time someone says that what Porthos did is alright. It's not. That is not up for debate: you do not treat people like that, good people *do not do that*.

This will be long, and despairing. You can guess the content. Don't read it if you don't want to read that content.

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Five Times Aramis Escaped From Richelieu, and One Time That He Couldn't part four, Musketeers short, affinityverse (best catalogued in my memories) <3

Disclaimer: ffs

Rating: Probably only PG-13?

Warnings and spoilers: The main list's on part one, read sensibly.

Summary: 4. Get the hell out of dodge.

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In Extremis, Musketeers fic, affinityverse (best catalogued in my memories) <3

Disclaimer: I seem to own very little when I admit that neither the characters nor the poetry are mine.

Rating: Probably R

Warnings and spoilers: The main list's on part one, read sensibly. Some discussion of coming to terms with one's own mortality in this one, the cheery thing I spent last year doing while they were trying to work out if whatever is wrong with me would kill me or not. It's not the nicest, and I wouldn't read if you really don't fancy that in your life right now.

Summary: First Penance, then Anointing, then Viaticum.

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Fray, Musketeers short, affinityverse (best catalogued in my memories) <3 Haven't updated this since *December*, I know, and I'm still working out how to post this verse given I haven't transferred everything properly across yet . . .

Disclaimer: Were I sued, all I have to give is chronic pain and some cocktail recipes.

Rating: Probably R

Warnings and spoilers: The main list's on part one, read sensibly. Bit . . . sad, this one. It's uphill before we get to freewheel down.

Summary: There is nothing so isolating as knowing everybody's thoughts but your own.

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Drink and be Merry, a men in hats fic set in the stupid exorcist AU. You can tell what my typing rate is like when I post my 'Christmas' fic in April . . .

Disclaimer: If we're going to get all Mari Kondo about it, some of the things that spark joy aren't actually yours to begin with.

Warnings/spoilers: No real spoilers beyond vague references to S1 stuff - everything I do is written off S1 canon, btw, because I just can't fucking stand some of the characters beyond that point - and warnings-wise, refer to part one, but everything to do with vampires in this universe is to do with *vampires*, and the metaphors we use them for; violence, sex, sexual violence, consent and the lack of it, addiction, some generally pretty nasty stuff. So don't read unless you're feeling like it's something you're willing to deal with right now, bearing in mind that the world's a lot to deal with right now anyway.

Summary: Aramis thinks it's simple; Athos thinks that 'it's complicated' doesn't even begin to cover it.

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