You made seriously the right decision in stopping watching after S1, I wish I had ^^; (It's not just that S2 was bad and boring and S3 was worse, though they were, but fuck me, they're miserable. Literally not one happy thing ever happens to Aramis again after S1. How he's sane by the end of the series, especially with Porthos working away at purposefully destroying his sanity, I have no idea.)

And it's really weird for me looking at the Porthoses I wrote before he turned out to be an abuser. He was already a difficult character - all three of them are difficult, none of them are saints - but it's just such a shocking, fundamental *poison* in a person, that they do that to someone else, that they choose to treat other people like that for personal gain. And honestly, affinityverse Porthos really probably would punch canon Porthos if he met him. I don't condone it but I don't see how it could be avoided ^^; (One thing to see a character you used to love be that person, but to see 'yourself' as that person . . . ?)

I do feel better for having got this all out, partially just as a purge of guilt because I've felt so complicit in it all ^^; And thank you for being so kind, honey, you've always been really lovely =) It's the *weirdest* bad feeling, to feel betrayed by a fictional character. Why we let them do this to us . . . ^^; I hope you're well, and thank you, again <3