rainjoyswriting: (kurt!)
Conversations With the Dying and the Dead, Musketeers fic, affinityverse (best catalogued in my memories) <3

Disclaimer: I just finished the Twin Peaks finale, I don't even own a functioning brain right now. Talk to me about theories though y/y??

Rating: R-ish I don't even know I don't know anything anymore

Warnings and spoilers: The main list's on part one, read sensibly. More sensibly than any of us who watch anything by David Lynch before bed.

Summary: "Did you see a man pass here?"/"There's no-one here but you."

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rainjoyswriting: (kurt!)
Five Times Aramis Escaped From Richelieu, and One Time That He Couldn't plus one, I'm sorry, Musketeers short, affinityverse (best catalogued in my memories) <3

Disclaimer: The writers of the series never apologised, I'm willing to . . .

Rating: This? G. The world works in mysterious ways.

Warnings and spoilers: The main list's on part one, read sensibly.

Summary: Finally, he's not confused.

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rainjoyswriting: (kurt!)
Proximity to Crows, Musketeers fic, affinityverse (best catalogued in my memories) <3

Disclaimer: The price of butter has risen by a quarter since January. The fact that I'm painfully fucking aware of this suggests that my budget is rather smaller than that of the person who could claim ownership of these characters.

Rating: Eesh, call it R for old times' sake.

Warnings and spoilers: The main list's on part one, read sensibly.

Summary: How to win friends and not detonate people.

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rainjoyswriting: (kurt!)
Five Times Aramis Escaped From Richelieu, and One Time That He Couldn't part five, Musketeers short, affinityverse (best catalogued in my memories) <3

Disclaimer: Okay, you know it would have been different if I'd actually owned it.

Rating: Probably only PG-13?

Warnings and spoilers: The main list's on part one, read sensibly.

Summary: First impressions count.

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Aug. 9th, 2017 12:34 pm
rainjoyswriting: (kurt!)
This is a really weird post I never thought I would write, and I don't know if it will help matters or not, but it's something I can't get past and I got jarred into really badly again this morning reading a post about the Google discriminatory-email-fired-douchebag case, and now I *really* feel like I can't get past it. This has been tormenting me since the episode aired, and so this is basically a very long discussion of canon, and how fanon ignores canon, and a fact about canon I *can't* ignore, we *shouldn't* ignore. The post I was reading was arguing that white men claiming a right to air the political view that women and PoC shouldn't get hired by tech firms because they're not as good as white men are abusers, what they are doing is abuse, because abuse is a belief that you are entitled to certain things at the expense of other people (white men feeling they are entitled to be judged by lower standards, only against other white men, and not the rest of us, and they're entitled to make our work environment toxic to get what they feel entitled to; it was a good article, but I felt so ill with reading it I had to stop quarter of the way in).

And what it brought back to me, again, was the fact that I go through periods of writer's block in this fandom because I can't - I refuse to - get past a certain point of canon: Porthos is presented to us, in canon, as an abuser. And I am so angry at the character that I have difficulty now in writing him even in situations where I've given the character enough difference in situation that *that* character doesn't act like that; it still feels like condoning the abuse, saying somehow that it's not his fault, that it's *okay* to abuse people. It's not. Every new verse I've started in this fandom for a while (none of them has been posted yet) has either not featured Porthos at all or moved him into so minor a role that I can largely avoid him, because I can't write him as a good person when he isn't presented to us as a good person. I am struggling through finishing the affinityverse (it soothes me some to know that if affinityverse!Porthos met canon!Porthos, he would *hate* him, and they might come as far as physical blows; that verse was started long before we found out in canon who Porthos really is), but I really long for the relief of just not dealing with the character anymore. Below the cut will be a really lengthy discussion of canon evidence - nothing more, all of this is there onscreen to see - of Porthos' behaviour. If you don't want to read it, fine. I just want it out in fandom because it doesn't seem to be there that if you have been treated the way Porthos treats Aramis, it is *not your fault*, what was done to you is *wrong*, and you deserve to be somewhere safe away from the abuser, you *deserve* that. You certainly don't deserve retraumatising every time someone says that what Porthos did is alright. It's not. That is not up for debate: you do not treat people like that, good people *do not do that*.

This will be long, and despairing. You can guess the content. Don't read it if you don't want to read that content.

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rainjoyswriting: (kurt!)
Heat of the Moment, Musketeers fic, affinityverse (best catalogued in my memories) <3

Disclaimer: I don't own anything, I'm just here to play.

Rating: omg like R or something gods

Warnings and spoilers: The main list's on part one, read sensibly.

Summary: The thing about ever after is always that sinks have to be cleaned, meals have to be cooked, and somehow you have to learn to live with the angry one, the aloof one, the mad one . . .

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rainjoyswriting: (kurt!)
Five Times Aramis Escaped From Richelieu, and One Time That He Couldn't part four, Musketeers short, affinityverse (best catalogued in my memories) <3

Disclaimer: ffs

Rating: Probably only PG-13?

Warnings and spoilers: The main list's on part one, read sensibly.

Summary: 4. Get the hell out of dodge.

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rainjoyswriting: (kurt!)
Happily Ever After, Musketeers fic, affinityverse (best catalogued in my memories) <3 And as an fyi, this is *so* not the last fic in this verse, believe me . . .

Disclaimer: Considering how bad some of the writing on the latter seasons was, the actual owners suing fanficcers would really be pushing the bounds of irony.

Rating: Probably R

Warnings and spoilers: The main list's on part one, read sensibly.

Summary: "I saw his face."

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rainjoyswriting: (kurt!)
In Extremis, Musketeers fic, affinityverse (best catalogued in my memories) <3

Disclaimer: I seem to own very little when I admit that neither the characters nor the poetry are mine.

Rating: Probably R

Warnings and spoilers: The main list's on part one, read sensibly. Some discussion of coming to terms with one's own mortality in this one, the cheery thing I spent last year doing while they were trying to work out if whatever is wrong with me would kill me or not. It's not the nicest, and I wouldn't read if you really don't fancy that in your life right now.

Summary: First Penance, then Anointing, then Viaticum.

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rainjoyswriting: (kurt!)
Souvenirs, Musketeers fic, affinityverse (best catalogued in my memories) <3 I was meant to go to the library instead but everything hurts so fuck it.

Disclaimer: You have no idea how different it would have been had I owned it.

Rating: Probably R

Warnings and spoilers: The main list's on part one, read sensibly. We are still in the sad patch, but *cracks knuckles, hovers hands at keyboard* bear with me, bear with me . . .

Summary: There is no necessary connection between surprise and enjoyment.

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rainjoyswriting: (kurt!)
Fray, Musketeers short, affinityverse (best catalogued in my memories) <3 Haven't updated this since *December*, I know, and I'm still working out how to post this verse given I haven't transferred everything properly across yet . . .

Disclaimer: Were I sued, all I have to give is chronic pain and some cocktail recipes.

Rating: Probably R

Warnings and spoilers: The main list's on part one, read sensibly. Bit . . . sad, this one. It's uphill before we get to freewheel down.

Summary: There is nothing so isolating as knowing everybody's thoughts but your own.

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rainjoyswriting: (kurt!)
Talking to Strangers at Parties, a men in hats fic set in the stupid exorcist AU. Apparently this is where my brain is now, which makes sense because my health gets worse by the day and clearly I'd rather not face the affinityverse right now, yeah -_-;

Rating: R?? I don't know, it's not for kids but hell neither is the real world.

Disclaimer: While this election's at it they could nationalise creative property, then we wouldn't have to write disclaimers anymore. Alas.

Warnings/spoilers: Always refer to part one, but everything to do with vampires in this universe is to do with *vampires*, and the metaphors we use them for; violence, sex, sexual violence, consent and the lack of it, addiction, some generally pretty nasty stuff. There is in this part a description of a past violent sexual assault, but not enormously graphic.

Summary: Around the walls, all around the room, are little huddles of people with drinks, talking, eyeing the two of them as they walk in, ascertaining whether they're predator or prey.

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rainjoyswriting: (kurt!)
Drink and be Merry, a men in hats fic set in the stupid exorcist AU. You can tell what my typing rate is like when I post my 'Christmas' fic in April . . .

Disclaimer: If we're going to get all Mari Kondo about it, some of the things that spark joy aren't actually yours to begin with.

Warnings/spoilers: No real spoilers beyond vague references to S1 stuff - everything I do is written off S1 canon, btw, because I just can't fucking stand some of the characters beyond that point - and warnings-wise, refer to part one, but everything to do with vampires in this universe is to do with *vampires*, and the metaphors we use them for; violence, sex, sexual violence, consent and the lack of it, addiction, some generally pretty nasty stuff. So don't read unless you're feeling like it's something you're willing to deal with right now, bearing in mind that the world's a lot to deal with right now anyway.

Summary: Aramis thinks it's simple; Athos thinks that 'it's complicated' doesn't even begin to cover it.

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rainjoyswriting: (trike!)
Oh god I still owe so many comment replies and messages and emails, I'm so sorry. My arms are *worse* and as my therapist points out, now I have loads of depressive symptoms as well, because all the stuff that I would normally do and which would make me feel less depressed (e.g. being in contact with people, enjoying my hobbies, carrying on life as normal), I *can't* do right now because my arms are buggered. But, in brief: I'm sorry I haven't been in touch. I really will try to get back to you at some point. And I will also finish the affinityverse piece once more waiting halfway done while I got this out of my system as soon as my arms allow. God, this is the sort of thing I used to get out in less than a week -_-;


The Exorcist's Apprentice, Musketeers fic, stupid exorcist fic.

Disclaimer: Just, really, it isn't mine, no.

Rating: Probably R; some violence though mostly off-screen, and a little gore.

Warnings: Shit can always be as disturbing as I promised on part one; vampires, grief, and at least a side-eye towards bestiality at one point if that really disturbs anyone (look, in this universe, at some point someone was going to look at Aramis and Porthos and *wonder*).

Summary: He knows, immediately, that he's never going home.

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rainjoyswriting: (trike!)
You are all going to have to forgive me for the lack of comment replies and contact of every stripe, I'm afraid, my arms get worse, not better. This is the kind of fic I'd once have polished off over a week, it's actually been tapped out over a period of two months or something. Which probably explains why parts of it are a fucking mess, I really need a rhythm up before I can produce anything worth reading =/ I just currently have to devote any time I'm capable of typing to my thesis, everything else comes painfully if at all -_-

Instincts part three, The Key Already Turned, Musketeers fic, stupid exorcist fic.

Disclaimer: Things that are not official include this and any shit UKIP ever comes out with as if it's the view of the British populace in general.

Rating: R because I really don't know how to write for children.

Warnings: Shit can always be as disturbing as I promised on part one; violence, references to suicide here.

Summary: Exorcists and necromancers know that it is always easier to open than it is to close.

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rainjoyswriting: (kurt!)
Instincts part two, Pack, Musketeers fic, stupid exorcist fic (still currently only tagged, god I need to sort out my memories . . .).

Disclaimer: As official as a hand-knitted football scarf.

Rating: R because . . . stuff.

Warnings: Shit can always be as disturbing as I promised on part one; violence, occasional references to suicide here.

Summary: Pack is non-negotiable.

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rainjoyswriting: (kurt!)
Instincts part one, Little Lights in the Dark, Musketeers fic, stupid exorcist fic (currently tagged, I'll sort out getting them properly organised in my memories in a while). Guess whose shoulder is beginning to feel better <3

Disclaimer: lol yeah this looks like an officially sanctioned piece of fiction

Rating: R just because disturbing shit happens, thanks vampires.

Warnings: Vampires remain as disturbing as I promised on part one; people trafficking, violence and murder and the awful link between sex and power and violence you get with vampires, be wary of that throughout this verse.

Summary: Candles lit in dark places.

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rainjoyswriting: (kurt!)
Quiet, musketeers!fic, not affinityverse; I tried so hard not to write the OT3 modern AU exorcist fic but in the end I guess I just sort of wrote the OT3 modern AU exorcist fic -_-; This is a universe, not a standalone (dammit) though at least it's a verse where d'Artagnan will probably turn up in more of a hurry than he manages in the affinityverse . . .

Update on the shoulder and comments because I really do care about these things: I am *so sorry* not to have replied to some comments yet, *sorry*. The shoulder's bad - I was at physio today and I've been told it's ahahahahahah a typing related injury, e.g., TYPE LESS RAINJOY. I've been put on strict 30 minute blocks of typing time. Between my thesis, my job, and the fact that I need to write to keep myself from going *weird*, I have to prioritise those three things. But I promise I will be with you as soon as I can, because it bothers me that you were really nice and left a comment and I haven't managed to say thank you yet! Anyway, back to the fic . . .

Rating: R (whole fic will go up to NC-17, often for disturbing subject matter rather than smut)

Disclaimer: I don't own anything, between the characters and the epic cliché that makes up the rest of this.

Warnings and spoilers: Spoilerwise this fic is a kind of alternative S1 so you can expect sideways spoilers to that, but I doubt I'll bother with anything from S2. Warningswise, fuck. In this fic, violence and mention of a suicide, but this 'verse is essentially horror - I write a lot of fantasy and a lot of it is bedded in horror in various ways, but this just flat out is horror, we're dealing with fucking vampires and werewolves. Where there are werewolves you can expect a lot of violence; vampires are a whole different story. Vampires are an old terror of ours (they seem to crop up in multiple cultures around the world), they've had centuries to percolate through our stories, which has allowed them to build up a whole bunch of rich and super-disturbing associations with power and sex (and, in some later work, addiction). Where you have creatures grounded in metaphors for power and sex and it's the twenty-first century and long past time we talked about these things, you can expect consent to come up sooner or later, in a variety of potentially disturbing ways. So today's warning is vampires: they don't sparkle, and they are a mirror of the worst fucking parts of us.

Summary: On vampires.

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rainjoyswriting: (kurt!)
Psalm Seventy-Seven, Musketeers fic, affinityverse (best catalogued in my memories), a fairly short piece that kind of had to happen since Aramis actually picked up French.

Disclaimer: The only thing I own right now is astonishment that I can produce this on the side of the billion fucking things I have to do in the next six days fucking hell. Also as a side-disclaimer, I'm not a Catholic, Christian, or even a theist, I come from the 'why can't everyone just get along' school of atheism (our school motto is 'oh fuck off Richard Dawkins'). I don't speak for any authority, I speak for idiosyncratic characters, and nothing anyone says is ever meant to represent any grand Truth, okay?

Rating: PROBABLY R ARAMIS IS INVOLVED I CAN SEE THAT I WILL GET BORED OF WRITING THIS PART FOR THIS SERIES VERY QUICKLY also Porthos swears god love you Porthos <3

Warnings and spoilers: The main list's on part one, read sensibly, you know what you're in for by now.

Summary: I cried out to God for help; I cried out to God to hear me.

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rainjoyswriting: (kurt!)
Morpheus Speaks, Musketeers fic, affinityverse (best catalogued in my memories) <3

Disclaimer: Right now all I own is overwork and stress.

Rating: Hard R? No idea.

Warnings and spoilers: The main list's on part one, read sensibly.

Summary: Four dreams and a memory.

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